stuck in my cell of a room
just wondering wondering
what went wrong
why am i like this?
i wasn't before
i am numb
i feel nothing
anymore
how did this happen?
was it all the damn pain in my life
that caused this?
i was always taught god was looking out for me
but where was he
he wasn't there because he is just a damn made up person
to my great disapointment
he didn't answer my prayers and pleas
so i end up here, in my cell of a room
bleeding black blood for all the pain

Whats up everyone? I must start off by saying I am far from anything resembling a Roman Catholic. I fancy myself as more of an Agnostic Taoist/ Evolutionist, if there could be such a thing. Although I refuse to submit to a single belief system, at least during this part of my life, I'm still searching.

Now... What of all this Doomsday talk??? PROPHECY OF ST. MALACHY??? Do you think is should be dismissed as propaganda? That would be my first instinct but I admit there are startling coincidences.

Supposedly, According to St Malachy. Pope JP2, The "world traveler" is Pope no # 110. After his passing will come two more Popes: POPE 111 = "Olive's Glory" and Pope 112 = "Peter The Roman".

ACCORDING TO BIBLE PROPHECY, ONE OE THESE TWO FUTURE POPES WILL ACCEPT THE ANTICHRIST AS THE MESSIAH, AS THE SECOND COMING OF "CHRIST" (NOT JESUS)

POPE # 111: OLIVE'S GLORY

As of 19 April, 2005, Cardinal Ratzinger of Germany is the new Pope, # 111 and The spiritual leader for one billion Catholics.

Many scholars of St. Malachy's Prophecy believed that Pope # 111 would be "Olive's Glory" because he will be of the Order of St. Benedictine, OLIVETAS GLORIUS. Yet Cardinal Ratzinger was not a Benedictine

POSSIBILITY ONE: NAME ALONE

It is possible that Pope Ratzinger is "Olive's Glory" soley because he took the name, BENEDICT XVI, as St. Benedict started this ancient order long ago.

Others believe Pope #111 will be "Olive's Glory" because he will bring Peace to the mideast, between Israel and The Moslem world. Ratzinger has a nasty past as he was part of Hitler's Nazi party and served as a prison guard.

IF POPE JOHN PAUL II, who was loved and respected by millions, (Moslems Included) failed to bring Peace to Israel, how can a German Pope with a Nazi Past? Why would Israel trust in this man, a man who once served The Swastika?

POSSIBILITY TWO: PEACE MARTYR

There is the possibility that Pope Ratzinger will attempt to make Peace in Israel and be assassinated by a Terrorist. (THIS WOULD MAKE HIM A MARTYR FOR PEACE, "OLIVE'S GLORY".

POSSIBILITY THREE: SATAN'S POPE

Ratzinger, Pope #111 could fulfill "Olive's Glory" as revealed in The Mystical Eschatology of The Vatican

According to Roman Catholic Dogma, A future Pope will have the Great Honor (to ceremoniously) "Return The Keys of The Kingdom To Christ at His Second Coming", making this Pope, "OLIVE"S GLORY".

WAS CARDINAL RATZINGER CHOSEN
FOR THIS GREAT, VATICAN
HONOR AND GLORY?

According to The Bible, JESUS returns at The End of The Great Tribulation of seven years. (Matt:24, Daniel 7 & 9, Revelation chapter 19).

THIS MEANS THAT A FUTURE POPE
WILL BLINDLY ACCEPT ANTICHRIST
SATAN'S SON, AS THE MESSIAH,
"CHRIST", SAVIOR OF THE WORLD!

I believe that Pope Ratzinger could be this Doomsday Pope (predicted by St. Malachy) who will mistakenly lead the world and one billion Catholics to accept and follow The Antichrist, The Beast, 666. (Rev:13).

If this happens then Pope 111 will meet with an untimely death and be replaced with Pope 112, "Peter The Roman" who may well be a DEMON in Human Form or a demon possessed pope.

IF RATZINGER IS NOT THE DOOMSDAY POPE, HE WILL HAVE A SHORT REIGN AS POPE AND BE REPLACED BY POPE # 112, PETER THE ROMAN, PETRAS ROMANUS, WHO WILL ACCEPT THE ANTICHRIST AS THE MESSIAH AND LEAD ONE BILLION CATHOLICS TO WORSHIP THE DEVIL'S SON!

THE PARABLE OF THE FIG TREE IN
MATT:24:32 SEEMS TO SAY THAT
THE TRIBULATION WILL START SOME-
TIME BETWEEN 2007 AND 2018 AD

THE BIBLE CODE SEEMS TO PLACE
THE START OF THE TRIBULATION
BETWEEN 2006 and 2012 AD

2012 AD IS THE ANCIENT
MAYAN YEAR FOR DOOMSDAY.

I'm not easily taken by this kind of hoopla but find it most interesting. Furthermore, despite my beliefs that Chirstianity is a most corrupt and wicked religous idealism, namely the Roman Catholic Church (i.e. Crusades, Vatican money laundering,) I cannot deny the unsettling coincidences. Whats your take?

Even further still, I've learned off the Bibles stories, such as GENESIS and REVELATION hidden in Chinese Ideograms. Which dates more than 4000 years old. To me thats crazy. Anyone have any other information on this???

ive spent quite some time thinkin and researching(reading the bible is one) for this questions..yet the more i dig deeper into the issue... More questions seems to rise rather than answers.There have been so many different beliefs, doctrines and teachings on these subjects that one would find it hard to know just what to believe. Some think the only safe way to live their lives is to look at every action one does and judge it, accordingly. Others, cowering under fear, believe "the devil" is hiding behind every shadow or underneath the earth, just waiting to pounce on them. In both cases, that's certainly no way to live and I do not believe those to be truths Jesus stated would set one free. Perhaps, we can find simpler understandings of them and remove the fear of the unknown.

Fear forms closed doors in one's life. Each of us have the ability to choose to go through each and every door of fear and see what lies behind it. The only way fear can be vanquished from a life is for it to be faced. You have to make the decision to not fear. Fear is the opposite of love and God is love. That means God is not the source of fear. Will you choose to face your fears to find inner peace?

You may be wondering why I am writing about fear. In the past, I was stopped from following what I was hearing on the inside of me, by people who were telling me "God might send me to hell," if I do not follow their teachings. Funny, how I figured out later that I was already in hell by believing others' false beliefs about God and myself. I spent years in that hell by refusing to hear anything but the religious teachings I had learned. Yet, I had no idea my beliefs were in flawed and hurtful to me and others. Fear has a way of paralyzing and hurting each of us.

The following questions are for your consideration:

Question 1: Some teach and believe "sin" as being an outward physical action, but Jesus taught sin to come from within a person's heart or mind. Could "sin" simply be a forgivable mistake due to lack of understanding, and perhaps meaning only to "to mis-think?" (Matt. 12:35; 15:17-20)

Question 2: Could "repentance" simply mean "to change one's mind?" What is repentance? (Mark 1:15)

Question 3: It is written that Jesus spoke numerous times, "only believe," and "have faith." Could he be saying, "What you believe becomes real to you?" (Mark 5:36; Luke 8:50; Matt. 17:20;21:21-22)

Question 4 Many teach the "devil" or "Satan" to be a powerful, invisible being, lurking around every corner, just waiting to attack his helpless victims. If that were true, then why would Jesus call Peter, "Satan," and Judas Iscariot, "a devil?" Could Satan and the devil represent something within us, far simpler to overcome? (Matt. 16:23)

Question 5 The book of Revelation states that the devil, Satan, serpent and dragon are all one and the same. Knowing this, why do you think Jesus also called the religious leaders of that day, "vipers" or serpents? (Matt. 12:34; Rev. 12:9;20:2)

Question 6 Why are believers still waiting for Jesus to come when John clearly stated that "He is come in the flesh," and anyone who denies this is the antichrist? In light of this verse of scripture, what is an antichrist? (I John 4:1-4)

Question 7 The unclean spirits Jesus confronted never denied who he was, even proclaiming him to be the Son of God. I John 4:2 states Jesus to have come in the flesh and whoever denies this is "antichrist" (against Christ - wouldn't the unclean spirits count as anti-christ?). In this verse, could John have been speaking of man's denial of Jesus' appearing (or coming) within our own flesh? (Mark 1:24-25; Col. 1:27)

Question 8 Why do men teach there to be only one antichrist to come when John clearly stated, "There are many antichrists?" (I John 2:18-23)


***more to come***

I am Atheist.. I do not believe in
god nor do i believe in satan.. I have
no problem with people who believe in
a god.. Everyone has their opinion..
But I'm Atheist because.. There is no
proof of the existence of god... There
is no need of, or use for, a god.....
There is no all-powerful good god;
otherwise there would be no
imperfection.... If this is the best
world god can make, the stories of
Heaven must be lies. I am who i am,
and you should like me for who i am
not what i believe in! and If you
don't like what i say well....

ang hirap pala talga kumita ng pera...........isang linggo plang aq nagtratrabaho..... bugbog na ang katawan ko.....futaena......pahirapan makakuha ng perang pan-date ah!

damn.... it's really hard to copy those guys with chiseled abs... the pain i am feeling is really excruciating.... i can feel my body aching everytime i move... yet... i had a hell of a fun doing those sets.... i got this time table.... by the end of the year.... id be able to achieved those model-like body......Know why im doing this?!? i want to be a "macho" dancer as a part time job! haha..juz kiddin

upon a rock......
ive known so well....
sat a girl...
i love like hell..

she took my heart from me...
now she's gone settin me free...

she's with a guy that's on his knees...
and told her things that was once me...

i went to my bedroom and started to cry...
cause i know he's better than i...

my door..
my father broke...
there he saw me...
hanging on a rope...

he took a knife....
and cut me down...
upon my shirt...
a note he found...

it said:

dig a hole...
dig it deep....
marble and stones...
from head to feet...
and on the stone...
place a dove...
bearing the words....
"i died for love"

keepin the pain inside...hoping for it to subside....
time will tell if this, i will still be able to hide........
the feeling of burden, to myself i have given...
having trouble sleeping, it's you that cant be forgotten........
facing the fact that to me you cant be satisfied......
this i hate to see.... hoping i was blind...

tears that fall, impossible to recall...
wishin that maybe, i can stand for you tall...
making you happy, giving you evrything willingly....
envious of the people, who can cheer you up easily...
askin myself why, no matter how much i cry...
this pain wont go away, makin me want to die...

to you, i hope i still have some importance...
coz now, i see myself to you as a hindrance.....
preventin you from doing what you want...
stabbin myselyf from seeing you happy...
with others doing things that i cant...

my angel,my love, my happiness,my life.........
ease the pain im feeling tonight..
tell me the truth that shall open my mind...
will i be happy or just die blind...

i hope this wont be the last...
for our past has not been fast...
moments with you will forever last...
though i may have already been forgotten..
my love for you shall never be broken...

I don't know what to do
I think that I am falling in love with you
I know that you don't feel the same way
So I'll just sit here sad every day

For your love I would die
I would be your angel, standing by
I would do anything for your love
I would be your angel, sent from above
I love you so much, words can't express
I would give up my world, I must confess

Given the chance to be with you
Is the only thing I really want to do
You've given me a way to believe in love
For before I thought it was a gift for loved ones that came from above.

How do I confess my feelings for you?
Believe me, it's not something easy for me to do
You know I've been hurt, and you know that I've cried

From people slowly killing me inside
But with your love, I will get through this
All I need is your warm gentle kiss
I know I've been hurt, but I'll risk it all
Because by you I've been lifted up, and I don't want to fall

We have tried this love thing before
But I'm scared to get hurt anymore
I'll give you my heart
And if you play your part
In loving me as much as I do you
We can start a whole life, a one brand new

I want to sleep with you side by side........
Our hair intertwined.........
Our sexes joined..........
With your mouth for a pillow..........
I want to sleep with you back to back.........
With no breath to part us...........
No words to distract us.........
No eyes to lie to us.........
With no clothes on.........
To sleep with you breast to breast.........
Tense and sweating.........
Shining with a thousand quivers.........
Consumed by ecstatic mad inertia........
Stretched out on your shadow.......
Hammered by your tongue.........

Is there such a thing as love at first sight?
That's the question I used to ask
Until I laid eyes on you.
How is it possible to feel so much for a
stranger, a passerby?
Love has no limits, no color, no time.
That's when I realized I had fallen in love -
Love at first sight.